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[Jul. 14th, 2005|07:02 pm] |
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Yesterday after practical, i went to join Jojo, Zhen Zhen, Tian Tian and Max for dinner at the market...Initially, Max was sitting at another table. We decided to move his bag to our table while Max was buying food. I walked towards the direction they were pointing at and grabbed the red bag i saw...I was about to bring it back when this guy at that particular table stopped me...The bag belonged to him...I realized then that Max's bag was at a table further away...It was quite embarrassing...It was like "daylight robbery"...Surprisingly, the guy whose bag i took by mistake was quite nice for a guy who had his belongings taken away from him...
My Chinese Oral Examination was really bad...I don't wish to elaborate...It just saddens me...I have to really do well for the other Chinese papers to secure my A1...That will be quite difficult but i have to try anyway...Tomorrow will be the Chinese Listening Examination...I am so nervous...I am thinking of skipping the POA lesson tomorrow...But i will feel guilty...I should turn up...It's for my own good...Wish me luck people...
I am so stressed over my O Level...*Screams*...I must do well...
Kyle Scott: Yup...Elizabeth's right...Singapore used to be a British Colony...Now it's and independent country...The majority speaks English here...Chinese is my Mother Tongue...Haha...
Elizabeth: Yup yup i remember that definition...Lol...But just curious...What would your "real" definition be? |
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[Jun. 12th, 2005|09:01 pm] |
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I am so annoyed...I was actually typing a really long entry before my computer decided to hang on me...Grr...Now i am here to retype everything...I doubt you guys want to read a super long entry anyways so i will try to cut short...
It was my dad's birthday today. I bought him a shirt and drew him a card...I left them on the dining table as a surprise. What got me a little irritated was that my dad stained his shirt during dinner...I can really be a spoilt brat at times...
I met Malik and Christensen at Serangoon MRT Station this morning...We were supposed to meet at 8.15 am but I was late muahaha...I was quite surprised that they actually turned up and definitely did not expect them to be on time...
We met Sabrina at church and she was a little crazy during mass...Fortunately, she "recovered" in the afternoon but became really lethargic soon after...After mass, Sabrina went off ahead of us and had a little chat with Father Gerard about how i brought two friends to church...That led on to Father requesting that i bring my "two new friends" to the office...Our conversation lasted for quite some time and Father invited them to join RCIY...They shocked me by sort of agreeing...But i doubt they will actually show up and was just trying to be "polite." Before we left the office, Father suggested that i bring more of "these nice people" to church more often...Nice huh...Right...Lol no offense...
After stepping out of church, Malik and Christensen realized that they left their umbrella behind...After a minor consideration and some words exchanged, they decided to not go back for it...Oh wells...Whatever...I doubt they will ever get the BMC umbrella back muahaha...
Anyway, we went to eat roti prata after that...Certain things happen...There was this guy who was being a little over-friendly...Sabrina is prejudiced against him and as to why well that's a long story muahaha...Ya...I decided to censor this part of my journal entry because i have been mean enough already...
I do honestly feel bad talking about that person like that...Oh my goodness...Have to end abruptly something just cropped up...Signing off now... |
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[May. 30th, 2005|06:22 pm] |
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| | Michelle Branch - Everywhere | ] |
I always believed that i shouldn't ask of a person what i can't do myself. However life is full of contradictions. My heart and my head just go against each other. I do have expectations of others. This world is really that unfair. But what puzzles me is why people can accept it? It angers me to think so. Perhaps I too have been accepting it. I just refused to believe it. I get depressed or upset when i think but that's the only thing i know how to do. It's pointless...Totally pointless. Actions speak louder than words and yet i only know how to express my opinions. But have i actually ever did something about it? The answer is no because i know i am inadequate to do so. Yet, i am so affected by it.
Indeed you can't go on in life without sacrifices. Looking back, i feel so naive. Yes naive. The one word i hate the most, i use on myself. I can't help feeling so bitter. It's self-pity i know and i don't like it. But, i am too weak to stop feeling like that. I like sharing with people because i think it can help lessen my burden. It's selfish but when have i not been selfish?
I am back to where i was. The first time it just happened unknowingly. Probably i was getting too lonely and i just started thinking. I came back and thought i can start anew. I made a decision to change. A decision i got too comfortable with and now regret. I don't know how to handle it anymore. Everytime i say things like that, people will say i am being stupid. I am creating a problem when there isn't one to begin with. Perhaps. But at this point of time, this is what i am feeling. It is very real to me but maybe not to you guys.
The world does not revolve around me. I should be the one adapting to the world. But isn't the world made up of people? Aren't there people out there who are like me? Aren't there people who feels what i am feeling at this point? There must be. Why then do we get disregarded? Just because we don't fit in? Just because we are the stubborn gear pieces that refuse to fit in place we get thrown away and replaced?
Many have told me that i am an anti-capitalist. I go against what people think. That's true and that's social suicide. I am trying to change that. But don't think that my aim for anything i do is to go against the system. No. Sometimes i do these things because i honestly think it's not supposed to be like that. I don't want to be part of this world if i need to conform to all its rules. But i asked myself if it's possible for me to totally isolate myself from this world. Once again my answer is no i cannot because i am so reliant on it. Without it i too will collapse. But it definitely will not fall without me.
There's no solution and no compromise to this even though i desperately want one. I am paranoid and insecure by nature. People cannot be trusted. They cannot be trusted to live up to what you want them to be. I chose to trust people and made myself forget my doubts because i needed people. However i am force to face this reality. In this world, you are actually standing alone. I am a failure to this world because i am not smart enough to play its game nor strong enough to carry on all by myself.
Fundamentally, it's about survival of the fittest. I am feeling very confused right now and i am just spilling whatever comes to mind. This is one never ending game that tires me. There will never be a conclusion to this. From this point on, i am starting over. I will forget this. Hopefully one day i can find the perfect answer. But then again maybe this is the meaning of life - to keep searching for an answer. At least this is true for me. People keep finding excuses for themselves. I am no exception. I feel better now. I always do. I will shed no more tears over this. Thanks for hearing me out :) |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2004|10:51 am] |
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I am so frustrated! I am told if i were to go back to New York, i would be posted to an International School. I will miss forensics...That is so unfair...But if i were to stay in Singapore, it would be worse...I would have to repeat a year...Basically i am in such a mess... |
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[Aug. 6th, 2004|09:24 pm] |
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| | Background music from the VCD i'm watching... | ] |
I finally have access to a computer to update my livejournal. I am in Australia right now and it's pretty alright. My brother-in-law (haha i can call him that now) bought an X-box and i am completely addicted to it. I have been neglecting my work but who cares.
Singapore was great. I will be going back again for a week before flying back to New York. I made a new "sister" Shaun who is my best friend Sabrina's biological brother. It really was his own fault that he overheard a "girl" conversation. I really had no choice. I also met a new friend through Sabrina named Benjamin.
Benjamin is like her other best friend...*sobs*...I get totally ignored by Sabrina when he is talking to her...grr...Calling him Ben or Benjamin is weird so i am trying to convert him into being my sister too because calling him "wu jie" just sounds so much better.
Another new friend i made was Rynette. Well i actually knew her since i was in nursery school but we haven't been like really close. It's fun hanging out with her. She is a neoprint addict...But she is pretty so it really doesn't matter...
I watched Spiderman 2 twice. During the second time i left in between the movie to meet my friend from Primary School Fang Yu. We met Sabrina, Benjamin, Rynette and my other best friend Ethel after the movie and walked around aimlessly, took neoprints then went our seperate ways. Sabrina, Benjamin, Fang Yu and I went for lunch. After that they all had to send me home because i basically have no sense of direction at all.
I ate a lot of food in Singapore. It was so much fun. I ate durian almost everyday. I was really lucky. I saw many people i didn't expect to see like Tzen Chia. She looks the same but her voice is definitely different. I watched a horror movie "The Sisters" and it really scared me for days. Sabrina's fault again. Emmanuel ran out half way. Well we couldn't really blame him. He had to return to camp and there are stories about the supernatural in there *shivers*... Ethel did not want to go and gave all sorts of excuses. Hmph! We haven't settled that score with her yet.
Too bad i missed James' birthday again because i had to come to Australia. I always miss it.
Hahaha and i got my new Edison Chen CD!!! I will miss his new movie though...hopefully they will show it here in Australia...
I wouldn't be writing so much if i had brought my diary to Australia and i thank anyone for reading this and bearing with me...Well good news for all those who are sick of reading this because i need to go now...Bye all of you...
P.S. Jenna and Kati, sorry i haven't been sending the pictures as promised. I will get to it real soon. Hope you guys have a great summer... |
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[Jun. 9th, 2004|08:43 am] |
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| | Nobuo Uematsu - To Zanarkand ( orchestrated ) | ] |
I remember saying i was going to write a testimonial for my "sister" James but until today, i haven't done it. I forgot to do it as soon as i updated my journal entry the other day. I can't wait till finals and regents are over...I can't wait till i see the straight A's in my final report card for the year. I have to get straight A's for my finals and regents...I wonder if i've menitoned it but i am getting an 89.8 average in Math. I need to get an A on the test this Friday...If i get a B, i will get a B for the quarter and i will be extremely upset... |
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[Jun. 4th, 2004|09:39 am] |
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| | Hillary Duff - So Yesterday | ] |
Well basically i want to say i have another online journal at http://www.xanga.com/love4cinderella
Is it weird talking to your ex-boyfriend about liking someone wrong? I think it is...haha...Yesterday i was talking to san jie and i was asking him some questions. Like i asked him why we do things even though we know they are bad? I also gave him an example of how people like the wrong people even if they know that person isn't right for them. He started telling me how everyone has flaws and that i should stop thinking so much about life. I told him i can't help it because some things are bothering me...He was like you are bothering me with problems that are bothering you...basically i was driving him crazy with my incessant questions...Unfortunately, he did not give me the answer i was looking for and he went offline...or was it me? I can't remember...
This morning i asked him about it again and for some weird reason, the message wasn't sent to him...I had to go to school so i left without getting the answers i need again...Anyway i have to write a testimonial for him now...hahaha guys sometimes have nothing better to do than have a competition on the number of testimonials they receive on Friendster...well sometimes girls (like me) are like that too and go all crazy which is fun at times lol...
I just got notified that my sister cut her hair short lol... |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2004|11:02 am] |
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Here are a couple of pictures from last year...
My cousin Joey and Me...
My mum, me and my dad...
More pictures to be posted soon...
The pictures don't seem to show up anymore... (edited: September 13 2005) |
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[Jun. 1st, 2004|09:44 am] |
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| | Jacky Wu and Landy - 屋頂 | ] |
My sister explained something to me about how looks matter. People might say what's inside is all that counts but the outside also reflects you as a person. My sister went on giving an example on how people who are overweight are most unlikely to get a job. The reason being that if one can't control his or her eating habits, how is the employer able to trust that he or she is disciplined when it comes to work? Well there are of course exceptions but what she said does make sense.
However, i think i should eat while i am still young...lol...well of course i have to make sure i stay healthy though...About dressing up...well it's fun but not when you have to wake up early in the morning repetively to do so...
My sister also sent me a song this afternoon. I am listening to it now. Unfortunately she did not have the Jay Chou and Landy version. But this version is nice too...
I lost my pencil case for the third time i think on Friday...Yes yes...it comes down to responsibility...hahaha...I am really careless and clumsy...
Kyle also taught me something new today. Something about how two elements Sodium and Chlorine when mixed together become tablesalt...cool isn't it?
I am editing this entry again...I forgot to mention that there will be a "Singaporean Idol" soon in of course Singapore...i believe auditions start June 5th... |
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[May. 27th, 2004|04:59 am] |
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| | Dionne Warwick - That's What Friends Are For | ] |
We came in 11th place in the Forensics competition!!! Yay!!! Considering it is our first year and 60% of the group is made up of Freshmen and the remainder juniors, i think we did wonderfully. I did not include Kyle in the equation but he too helped out loads in the team like being our "victim" for example. The first person i want to thank is of course Mr. Irwin. He is the best and without him, the team wouldn't have come this far. Next would be our team leader Kati. She is a great leader and extremely nice. She is very calm, collected and handle things efficiently. Well last but not least i want to thank the entire team. We did great!!! Hahaha i am no longer disappointed. I keep saying, " i want to thank..." lol...sounds so individual...it was a team thing...
Consuelo said that after the speech yesterday, the "people in charge" say they would further discuss about Mr. Irwin's job. In five days at least 650 signatures were collected. That says something. Mr. Irwin is a fantastic teacher!
I have heard feedback about the lyrics appearing as boxes. I think for it to appear correctly, the chinese translation thingy or something like that has to be installed in the computer. Anyway for more updates check my blog lol... |
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[May. 26th, 2004|07:24 am] |
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| | Budak Pantai - The Moon dai biao wo de Heart | ] |
| UCAUTION | | IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP LOVE4CINDERELLA AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES. |
From Go-Quiz.com
Last Friday, i went to the movies with Jenna, Kyle and Stephanie. We watched Van Helsing. It wasn't a great movie but it was still ok. Yah...and Jenna related to Casey, Elizabeth and Lauren during lunch on how i screamed twice during the movie. In my defence, the vampire and the werewolf came out of nowhere. Besides the werewolf was upside down *pouts* There were some technical problems during the movie though. The film went off suddenly and some random music was being played. Then it came on again but two seconds later it went off. It was hysterical...
Mr. Irwin is quote "not invited back next year" meaning he is getting fired. I am not sure why but a probable reason might be that he did not receive his tenure. But he is an awesome teacher though and i really really like him. We wanted to start a petition but apparantly Consuelo and some other people started one already, and they will be at New York Avenue Main Street giving a speech about the petition. I really hope Mr. Irwin will be able to stay...
I really should be doing my Science review flashcards now. But i am ahead of schedule anyway lol...Before i end this entry, i want to remind you guys to check my blog too ok? Oh yah and if you all do read my blog or happen to be in the Forensics Club, you will know about the whole Consuelo thing...By the way, i think the time shown on each of my entries are wrong...hahaha... |
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[May. 24th, 2004|08:30 am] |
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| | Twins - 多謝失戀 ( Midi ) | ] |
The translations for both songs are found in my blog. But i think the translation for one of them is not shown because the entry is archived or something...Enjoy...By the way both songs are in Cantonese... |
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[May. 24th, 2004|08:24 am] |
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| | Twins - 多謝失戀 ( Midi ) | ] |
This is the lyrics to 多謝失戀
多謝失戀
原曲作者：伍樂城 RNLS
原曲作詞：黃偉文
原曲編曲：伍樂城 RNLS
原曲監製：伍樂城 RNLS
歌詞提供：小夜
Ｇ：回頭是場空 大地回冬 初分手數天 總會痛
仍然在途中 只好相信 雨過後有彩虹
Ｃ：曾落空 先知我 因為愛 曾經多英勇
曾為愛上你面紅 夠我閉上大門 在慶功
Ｇ：全靠當天喜歡過 錯的人
Ｃ：今天先會 自我解窘
Ｇ：明白小小的失戀 不害人
Ｃ：更加添我 成熟感
Ｇ：無法一起都總算 愛過些人
Ｃ：借過你體溫 練習擁吻
Ｇ：留下你合照細望 才知道
Ｃ：我跟他人 更合襯
Ｃ：從前學年中 自命情種 一出手 愛得比較重
來年換時空 應該長進 再愛定更鬆容
Ｇ：曾撞板 先知我 因為愛 曾經多失控
回望過去也面紅 愛上你似漫遊 外太空
Ｃ：全靠當天喜歡過 錯的人
Ｇ：今天先會 自我解窘
Ｃ：明白小小的失戀不害人
Ｇ：更加添我 成熟感
Ｃ：無法一起都總算愛過些人
Ｇ：借過你體溫 練習擁吻
Ｃ：留下你合照細望 才知道
Ｇ：我跟他人 更合襯
Ｔ：Da di dun....
全靠當天喜歡過 錯的人
今天先會 自我解窘
Ｇ：無論初戀多麼的 感動人
Ｃ：更好的愛 前面等
Ｔ：無法一起都總算 愛過些人
借過你體溫 練習擁吻
Ｇ：明白要讓我這樣 年輕過
Ｃ：至懂得誰最 合襯 |
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[May. 24th, 2004|08:22 am] |
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| | Boy'z - Girls ( Midi ) | ] |
Here is the lyrics to Girls by Boy'z
Girls
原曲作者：林健華
原曲作詞：陳少琪
原曲編曲：方樹樑＠好人有限
歌詞提供：LK_Hangman
Girls 可否不要哭訴 彷彿災劫將到
難道待你好 長留在你身旁數步
Girls 風險苦困因素 怎阻擋我飛舞
寧願代價高 仍是願意選 這一套
＊路上有霧 仍然沒有問回報
祈求是你別投訴 讓我飛得更高＊
＃男孩是越怕做 越要做 未卻步
未怕受罪亦未懼跌倒
別怨總會冷落你 但這一切是為你去做
男孩若論態度 是冷傲 樂與怒
負了重任默默待你好
為愛心血也盡耗 但你怎會看不到＃
Girls 當嘴邊貼膠布 辛酸使我嘔吐
從未被嚇到 從未滴血怎能進步
Girls 想增加我分數 偏偏給扣分數
如為伴侶好 離別便倒數太深奧
Repeat＊＃＃
若閉起兩眼共抱 沒說出也聽得到 |
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[May. 24th, 2004|07:20 am] |
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| | Vic Zhou - wen rou de wan an | ] |
I just want to remind you all that i have another online journal at www.love4cinderella.blogspot.com I will update both journals so be sure to check them out.
Anyway today is my parent's 23rd Wedding Anniversary. It is also Mr. Lynch's and Jen's birthday. What's more? Today it's my parents' friend's graduation party. This must be an auspicious day lol...
Check out my other journal for more details on my day today...By the way, i knew that Jenna posted that "warning" message. I just wasn't too sure...hahaha... |
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[May. 18th, 2004|07:06 am] |
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| | Carpenters - Close To You | ] |
This is my first entry on livejournal. Honestly, i wouldn't be updating if it wasn't for that notice threatening to delete my account. I want to have time to make my livejournal perfect first before even attempting to update. But then again Jenna has worked really hard on my journal and i don't want her efforts to go down the drain. My blog is also troubling me... *screams*...what is wrong with my online journals?
During lunch today we all had an argument on how to hand sign "quote quote." Well actually it was more of everybody against me. I sign it by crossing my forefingers and middle fingers and then bending them but the rest of them just bend both their fingers together. But i insist of being special...the majority isn't always right... Ok i've got to go back to finishing my work now... Hahaha... |
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